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ZAKI
SP - Mechanical Engineering
Life has always been a huge roller coaster ride for me, full of ups and downs, making me start to get tired of it.
But I always remember to smile always! :)
Friday, June 20, 2008
~8:16 AM
Some things just can't be helped. I really don't know what would happen 5-10 years down the road. And even if you wanna say anything about me in your own private space, go ahead. I don't mind. Why would I right?
And to Delima, I'm sorry. But really, I can't help but wonder what would happen down the road. When we're much older and all. Some things can't be predicted and I don't want to continue giving you the false impression. It really hurts for me to do just that. Cos I'm not that type of person and you know it too right? So I guess if we just do stick as just friends, it would be for the better of both of us. But after what happened to us recently, between you and I, and the feelings and all, I gotta admit, it's gonna be hard for us to continue life the way it is last time. It's difficult. I'm not going to ask you to give me time cos god knows how long will that be. I'm just not gonna say anything here. I can't lie to my feelings and continue contradicting myself right? I'm sorry.
And to Joey, hey, I don't want to continue giving you the false hopes and all. I read your blog recently and sometimes, the things you wrote about me.. Yeah it does make me happy and all but hey, what if this doesn't work out? What if things go wrong somehow? I know that it's difficult for you to let go of me but hey, all I can say is you gotta move on in life too. I'm gonna be super super fine. The thing is, I'm afraid that if I continue to be in contact with you, you might have the wrong impression and all and I don't want that to happen. And like Delima, you know that I'm not that sort of person right? So hey, I'm truly sorry if this doesn't work out. I'm sure there are others out there worthy for you. Trust me. I've seen many different type of person and the right type is out there for you. You just gotta wait and see. It'll come to you naturally. I'm sorry once again..
Somehow, I ust wish these things wouldn't have happened to me. Why did it happen I wonder.. Oh wells.. I'm just gonna treat this as a test of life for me..